As I’m sure you’ve noticed, you’re on a “revamped” called and compelled page. I even changed blog companies and the web address is a bit different. I really am just a fan of the way the wordpress blogs look and function, so we’re going to try this for a while and see how it goes. In some ways this will become like our website over time where we’ll create separate pages to update you on our boys and current projects we are working on, give you ways to jump in and help when you’re able, and prayer requests as you honor us with your prayers for this ministry. It will also be where I choose to process with you and think out loud.
Trust me when I say, you won’t agree with everything I write here. I don’t even agree with it sometimes after I read back over it after some time. Forgive me if this is too bold, but the purpose of a blog for me is not to write things everyone agrees with and find people who will follow what I write and think I’m wonderful, or this ministry is wonderful, or to “pitch” to the crowd. I pray to always seek Jesus and to be kind, but the purpose of a blog for me is to wrestle through the daily struggle of living in a desperate place and believing in a God who is faithful, it is to share the celebration when we get to see evidence of the way God’s goodness is manifesting itself in the “land of the living,” it’s to share with you the burden of the humanity I live with inside of this doggone flesh and confess that I wish I had more to offer on so many days, it’s often a cry for someone to remind me it matters when we feel like we’re failing, it’s a place to rejoice when that’s appropriate and to mourn when nothing else fits. It is most certainly a place to interact and engage and I pray that may be so.
I gave up blogging for a while, because I guess I had sort of just run out of things to say. It felt redundant, kinda. My plea for the impoverished and weak. My feeling like I was always begging for people to help. If I’m honest, I think I just needed to step away for a bit to feel like there was anything new in my heart to share.
I think I’m at a place where I feel ready to write again. It is healing for me. It’s as much for me as it is for any of you, so humor me while I attempt to give my thoughts and feelings a place. Every once in a while, all of you feels less cluttered if you just get them outside of yourself in some way. This blog will be that place.
I invite and welcome you to take part in this journey with me. You are an honored guest, through the terrificly murky waters of a human soul wanting to live a kingdom life out well. I pray we each find our own way to do that.
Here’s to a New Year with a clean calendar and so many opportunities to seek first His kingdom…Father may your kindgom come and your will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven…