Well for those of you who were so faithful to pray for all of us this morning, the trial is over and the children didn’t even have to testify. The brother ended up pleading guilty to the charges and will be sentenced to 15 years in prison.
I fully expected to walk into the courtroom and want to rake the boys eyeballs out thinking do you have any idea how you have messed these children up?? Do you have any idea how horrific these flashbacks are for this little girl…any clue? Instead what happened was that I walked into the room and I had to talk myself into believing that this was really happening, that I was indeed in the courtroom, that this indeed was a real judge in front of me, that these were the opening remarks from each of the lawyers, that this was NOT a movie…and then the most unlikely thing happened, I locked eyes on the perpetrator and what I saw on his face was the most forsaken remorseful face I’ve ever seen. He didn’t try to deny the charges, he didn’t have anything to say except that he was guilty and with a 21 year old face and what appeared to be a little boy heart I could feel nothing but pity for this one. I thought I have no idea what has happened to you in your life that would so mess up your mind that you would do this and now have to pay for sooooo long for it. He’ll be 36 before he ever sees the light of day again.
Granted am I upset with what has happened, oh HEAVENS yes!! Every time that sweet little girl goes into a trance remembering what has happened, I’ll hate it all over again.
But I’ll never forget the face of guilt I saw today. It was pitiful and I will pray that it is touched by the hand of God in ways I’m not even sure how to pray for yet. Cause God loves Him too and wants to rescue him. Sometimes I forget that, today I couldn’t.
Thank you so much for your prayers, God led the way and kept the children from having to see or even hear any of the trial and once again we’re reminded of His faithfulness! We appreciate you all so much!!