Hey gang, thanks for your comments on the last post. It definitely challenges me more as well when people respond and share their insights and thoughts. Feel like I need to share a few things to perhaps clarify a bit.
FIRST AND FOREMOST: Please know that when I post on here I am simply sharing my thoughts about where I am at the moment in this journey with Jesus. It may be right on target with His heart and it may be way off base somewhere. I always pray for God’s Spirit to lead my heart and my thoughts and make me look, act, and love more like His Son but I know that my humanness will undoubtedly get in the way sometimes. So I guess I would ask you to read it as that, a journey in process. Doesn’t have to look exactly like your journey and most times won’t probably and that’s what makes God so unbelievable that He would choose to be that intimately involved in each of our lives. I pray that regardless of whether you agree or disagree it might challenge your walk with Him as you think about some of what God is challenging me with. If you disagree and yet are challenged to think it through and mull it over with Him, I am a happy girl regardless.
To add to that, I’m not bailing on “Christ’s” church. Being a part of the body of Christ has been one of the greatest blessings of my life. I have been privileged to worship with a family who has become just that and I watch them with humility pursuing holiness. It has grown me up and nurtured my heart and helped foster an atmosphere that has helped me walk into a personal relationship with Christ and has forever changed my life. So I’m hanging with the body of Christ, I just have been challenged lately to recognize my place in all of that.
I’ll speak personally here for a moment. I think I was able to go through most of life up to this point minus the past few years with a pretty lacsidaisical attitude about my relationship with God because I think I had this very unacute awareness of how desperately I needed Him. I didn’t hear much about how messed up we all were but about how good we were supposed to be and act and somewhere in there I didn’t come face down before God. I have heard a hundred similar stories. When I did however, and I realized that I am a sinner who is absolutely lost without Christ’s blood and wandering aimlessly without God’s help, it wasn’t an excuse to throw my hands up in the air and not try, I wanted so badly to be who He is asking me to be because I realize how much He loves me and I am compelled by that. I’ve made a thousand better decisions out of this relationship of love than I ever made out of my doctrinal know what I’m supposed to do stuff. Think that’s true for most people who’ve gotten a taste of fall on your face grace.
My thoughts in the last post weren’t a criticism of any one fellowship of believers at all. It was just my thoughts on where we find ourselves as Christians in general sometimes. Myself as guilty as anyone else.
I just have been over and over again challenged by the words arrogance and pride lately. Maybe because God’s trying to drill them out of me I don’t know. I have also been over and over again allured by this word humility and desperately wanting to possess it and help to encourage it.
I guess I’ve just watched people over here with nothing who have absolutely nothing to be prideful about and they walk into this church building like hungry thirsty souls who are begging for a touch from God. Just wish we could all be more like that sometimes I guess.